I put in so much time
There was never any return
Six years is so much time
Time that I will never have again
I feel like I have moved on from that
I have had what I thought were good chances
With some very sweet girls
But now it seems that nothing is progressing
I crash before I even leave the ground
It’s nothing but a stupid game
I try to convince myself
It won’t be worth it unless it takes effort
My happy face conceals my resentment
Why can’t I have what I want right now
I thought I found it
Something felt so right about one of these girls
As though she were everything
All the good I ever saw in any other girl
Wrapped up into one person
I kill things by becoming excited
I don’t want to put all of my eggs in one basket
But it’s the only one I see right now
I thought the interest was mutual
Stupid flirtatious girls drive me crazy
Making you think something is there
When it’s really just a part of who she is
Sometimes I think I don’t just want a friend
I feel like I might be ready for something more
Love isn’t a destination
It is a journey
That will last the rest of my life
I just want to find somebody to share it with
I need to keep holding out hope
She is out there
And that though it may drive me crazy for now
It will be worth it in the end
