The Man in Me

I actually wrote this yesterday.

Frustrated with relationships
Do I want more
Or do I want less
Torn between wanting somebody
And wanting to be wanted
Wondering if I am good enough
I wonder if it is worth the chase
What do I need to do differently
Am I not attractive enough
Is there something wrong with my personality
Some flaw that I can not see
Is it there before my face
How can I want somebody else to want me
When I don’t want myself
I am so full of weakness
Stupid things that not only hurt the ones I love
They also kill me a little bit each day
Things I want to give up so badly
Yet they haunt me night and day
Demons in my dreams
Paralyze me with fear
I can’t move
My voice is gone
Somehow I live another day
My arms ache for somebody to hold
I reach for a hand that isn’t there
I see her potential for greatness
Though I have never seen her face
She’s a daughter of God
Deserving of all that a man can give her
Where is the man in me
Can I find him or will he find me
So that I can be all she wants and needs
This unfound love