I have an interesting job. Then again, it isn't my job that is interesting so much as the topics of discussion that seem to randomly crop up. We've been known to discuss all the things that one would expect not to generally talk about at work: politics, religion, and sex/dating. While we generally steer more towards the prior two topics, today the topic of dating came up and I was told that I *need* to find a wife. I always resent such compulsive statements as if I will somehow implode from not having a spouse.
Yes, it would be nice to have a woman to spend the rest of my life with, to love, honor and cherish. On the other hand, I've found myself moving to a place in my life where I am simply satisfied with life itself rather than constantly thinking that my existence is marred by my lack of finding myself within the bonds of matrimony.
I am aware of the religious view that my eternal progression is damned without having selected an eternal companion, but I really am not worried about that. I have spent a lot of time finding misery, guilt, and inadequacy in my dating experience, and I just have to wonder how continuing any of it could ultimately be good for me.
I want my life to be seen for the good I can do independent of any social arrangement rather than to have my life judged by the fact that I never found a spouse. All I want is to be satisfied with my life the way it is rather than being consumed by depression at my lack of an 'eternal companion.'
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